This quote right here explains so much about what I have been experiencing the last 2 years and why I feel like my life (and I) have been changing to the point of being unrecognizable to my previous self. I am slowing down, I am learning to relax, I am practicing trust that I am … Continue reading Overcoming Addiction
WHAT WOULD IT BE LIKE TO HAVE A DAD that could be proud of me? What would it be like to have a dad that saw me as an equal/potential equal, and was okay with or even eager for that? What would it be like to have a dad who was proud of me? Or … Continue reading What Would It Be Like To Have A Dad?
Someone asked me how I would encourage one who was on a journey of being single when their heart was to be married. After many years of deep bitterness, where every happy couple, every romantic movie with a happy ending, left a bitter taste in my mouth, I am softening to the a place of … Continue reading If I Never Marry
Since the first of the year I have been in a chakra cleanse class with one of my mentors, Amanda Flaker. Such a powerful experience and so much going on. I know I will need to continue to have great compassion and patience for myself as I keep allowing past wounds to speak and be … Continue reading Changing Powerful Beliefs
I've been pondering life today. It is strange how much can change, how one can become so different that they look at their own dreams as foreign. I think it is because Christmas is happening in a couple days and it feels so distant to me. I used to get excited for holidays, especially Christmas. … Continue reading Pondering Change
The heart has its reasons which reason knows not. This is such a powerful statement, and one that I've been learning about intensely for the last year and a half. I have learned that the heart is 60 times more electrically powerful than the mind, and 5,000 times more magnetically powerful than the mind. The … Continue reading Heart Matters
Perhaps you thought that girls were the only ones smitten by fairy tales as they grew up. But I would be at least one exception to that. I adored these beautiful, industrious, hopeful, creative, and precious young women who gave their best in truly brutal situations. It broke my heart to think that anyone could … Continue reading A Prince for Cinderella
Don't dim your light out of consideration for those who have chosen not to shine. Why do we do this? It's so strange, but I have seen this pattern in my own life. "Wouldn't it be obnoxious if I did well financially / improved my health and fitness / enjoyed loving relationships / achieved my … Continue reading Compassionate Settling?
[Warning: Deep reflections ahead] Taking care of others can be a beautiful thing. But taking care of others at the expense of ourselves is damaging in more than obvious ways. This has come up as a huge theme for me in the last couple weeks. People who grow up in abusive and angry homes learn … Continue reading Learning to be selfish
Growing up I felt completely responsible for how my dad felt and behaved. We walked around on eggshells, trying to modify our behavior so that he wouldn't get angry or we wouldn't be in trouble. I developed a false belief that it was up to me to make other people happy, so that I could … Continue reading Only Responsible for Me